The in between

I find myself an interesting position. It is an inevitable spot that every Midwife has found herself in, the in between. Transitioning out of your preceptors practice and into your own. It is exciting and hard. We Midwives get so invested in our clients, so many times friendships are formed and continued after care is completed. You can imagine how difficult it is then to stop coming to appointments. To start focusing on your own practice instead of investing so much in someone else’s. However, your heart is still with all the mommas at the other practice. You miss going to weekly appointments. Finding out how the family vacation went? Is little Johnny’s sleep training going well? Is baby in the same position as last time? Has the nausea subsided? How’s postpartum going? Anymore breastfeeding issues? All these questions that you aren’t able to ask or find out the answers to.

My heart aches to be there, but I also know, now is the time to get things set for my practice. Soon I will have those conversations again. Soon I will get the joy of hearing a heartbeat for the first time with a family. The joy of feeling a baby kick as you palpate and determine the little ones position. The joy of watching a couple become a family. It will all come in His perfect timing.